The Moment You Realise You've Become a Mother
- I could sit for hours feeding my baby and never utter a single word or complaint of discomfort because my baby's comfort was of primary importance and all that mattered.
- I learnt to shower and be ready in ten minutes, all while insanely imagining that I could hear my baby cry, wondering if I should abandon whatever I was doing and rush out.
- I was able to sleep with my eyes (literally) wide open and wake to the slightest of movements. It was indeed a transformation because I could sleep through an earthquake and only awaken to the sound of my alarm clock.
- I became as 'fearful as hell' and panic had no bounds for the first few days. Was I holding him the right way? how would I change his nappy, or bathe him? Every time he cried I felt my heart beat faster and whenever I figured out what his cries meant, the mommy in me jumped for joy.
- I could quickly and sometimes while holding my baby eat the most unimaginable foods simply because they were the most nutritious and healthy for my baby. I no longer felt tempted to eat that hot, spicy chaat or delicious cheese filled pizza. All guilty food pleasures were somehow easily erased in those first few months after birth.
- I suddenly began to cry at the drop of a hat and not because I was watching a movie. Anything that involved children could somehow pull the strings of my heart and make me hug my son a little tighter.
- I became an expert in talking about anything 'baby related' and aways looking for other mommies who would relate to my state of mind. It became quite normal to ask questions like "how old is your child"? or make statements like "Oh! That reminds me of my son" or " Let's arrange a play date".
- I felt helpless and emotional if my son was in pain and yet I knew this was just the beginning of learning to be brave.